Amnesia and indigestion

What happens when an amnesiac regains his memory? It's not as simple as suddenly remembering what was forgotten and everything's all fine and dandy. For the longest time the mind just stays in a state of confusion, unsure of what is what anymore. Through the metaphor of writing a song, it is like composing an intro, the first verse, the chorus, et cetera. But when you are somewhere in the second verse the intro suddenly gets erased, and after you finish that verse the intro is rewritten, but in sequential placement. And so once you play the song, it sounds rather eccentric, with the introduction being heard after two verses and a chorus.

In the same sense, the cure of amnesia induces the experience of the past after the present, warping the logical continuum in the sensing of time. You transform into a person you had once been but no longer are, live a life that was once yours but now belongs to someone else entirely--someone who doesn't even really exist anymore. You relive a past that is gone. I don't mean you re-experience some memorable happening; it's more like you are who you once were, undergoing some insignificant, inconsequential event, such as taking an afternoon nap or brushing your teeth, except in the past. More simply, it's like finding a jigsaw you had once solved years ago and rebuilding it. Nothing changes, but you sort of feel as though some part of your mind is how it had been back when you were first trying to solve the puzzle. Like having a daydream or fantasy in which the scenario is your own past, but you don't remember, or rather, don't wish to consider the "future" which is in reality the present.

And that's all fine. Except in the back of your mind you feel a slight pull from something that's trying to drag you back into reality, or in this case the present. And even though in this daydream of yours you obviously would not know what lies in store in a future relative to said fantasy, a rational sector of you brain warns you against continuing into that future which you had already experienced. Therefore you unknowingly try to stay in the relative now, though that is simply no longer possible.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I just had a pretty vivid dream. Or can I even call it a dream? It's not exactly "bad" per se, but still having the effect of inducing an undesirable feeling in my gut. I think I'm gonna write a song about my gut now. Though I can't shake off the feeling it'll wind up being some ditty about indigestion. Bleh.